Gone

It's all empty
my life's fading
and I feel
my heart's breaking

You said
it's all over now
I never meant something to you
it was just a show

I'm standing here
watching you leave
trying hard to go on
to take the chance to breathe

My world's breaking down
I don't find the pieces of me
I have lost all my dreams
you left the broken glass there for me

You're gone
and yet
I don't know
what I've done

Still I feel like dying
but the feeling has left
it's been like you
it's been leaving

You won't come back to me
you turned your back on me
and now I leave your world behind
to a place you'll never find

It's all gone
and I've done
what I was supposed to do
I needed to go

Written on 6th March 2008
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

Never loose you

"I've been silent for years until found someone I thought that I could trust and who might help me to find myself. And so I slowly opened and found a whole new world, beyond everything that my mind could have imagined. And yet I was afraid and wondering how far I might get." The girl slowly turned towards me and I knew that she meant me with every single word she'd said. "And still I long to be with you, Keyndra. But I'm afraid that I'm losing you..."
Her voice nearly faded and I felt the sorrow rising inside of me. I knew her for so long and yet I've never thought that I could be just as important for her. Leyna never seemed to need me at all. She was always tough and controlling the situation. And besides all this she'd never asked much of me. We spent the days together and enjoyed some trips. Even as we both had same habits I never thought that we would become as close as this. I hardly can tell how much Leyna means to me. She's like a sister, my best friend, and yet, there is much more then I could tell with words. Our souls need another. We can't survive without the other one.
"You won't loose me."
"Promise." She gives me that one look, that makes me feel sad and happy, both at the same time. Leyna knows about it much to well, but that's the way it is...
" I promise you'll never loose me Leyna." Has this been really me? I never wanted to promise anything to anyone.
"Thank you Keyndra." She smiles at me and walks out off the room. I follow her and watch her leaving my flat and my life.
It's been quiet the last time that I saw her and spent time with her. I sometimes wondered why she asked me for this promise, but yet I can't imagine it. I still wonder if we'll ever meet again.

Written on 6th March 2008
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben