a few words

I don't remember why it happened
but I still see you there
giving me that look
like I would have hurt you

after such a long time
I hardly could believe it
you've been so cool
always the one with the pokerface

nothing seemed to touch you anymore
no-one to care about anyone else
and then I just said those few words
which made you nearly cry

And even before I could think of anything
you looked at me with this sad expression in your eyes
you stepped out the room and left me there
once again the cool guy with his pokerface

Still I wonder what made you run away
I can't believe that you thought
I wouldn't love you anymore

Even if we're not together anymore
it won't change anything about how I feel for you
you're still a part of me and always will be
so what is wrong saying "I still love you"

Written on 25th November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

Broken

You've been the one I've always trusted
my strength, my believe and my faith
There's been no way that we'd ever be parted
until now

I don't know what it is
I don't understand what has happened
and actually I'm not quiet sure
if I want to know why I've been abandoned

Still I hardly can think about anything
but what you've done to me
I can't take away all my feelings for you
and yet I don't want to

we've spend to many time with another
we've known each other for way to long
we've been so close
that can't come to an end like this

we both had found our missing piece
we've become one
and now you tell me
you don't trust me anymore

I'm falling
and you're no longer there to catch me
you won't be there to bring me back

Never I would have guessed
that it would be you
to bring me down
to break me

All that you leave behind is me
broken
and never meant
to become whole again


Written on 24th November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

losing strength

how long will it take until I can't bear it anymore
this feeling of weakness, knowing I'm losing strength

and how long till I break down and leave the world behind
'cause I've no more faith and hope

what about all those I hold dear
why can't they be by my side and spend a little time with me
why don't they help me to get back to the place I long for
giving me strength and hope
that I can go anywhere with them believing in me

and still I'm waiting
waiting for the last second to come
I'm fainting and keep going
as no-one seems to care

but for how long

Written on 23rd November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

Never again

I'd never want to see you again
and yet I can't get you out off my thoughts

you're like a drug
keeping me by your side
and pushing me away
just as you like it

now that I've gone
I wish you'd be sorry
for all the things you've done

Written on 15th November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

For a friend

I wish I could be a hope
but I'm not

Far across the distance
I long to be a friend
but I guess I'm not

And for I may no come around
and be with you
you might be angry

But even if I fail
my wish still is up to you
the best for you

Written on 13rd November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben