Amazed

It's every single word
that you say
every little move
that you do

your smile
when you say hello
and the way
you look at me

I'm amazed
by everything you do
I feel breathless
when you're around

you make my day
every time I see you
you don't even have
to notice me

sometimes I wonder
if you even know me
or if I'm just one
you don't care about

and still
you give me hope
your songs
let me go on

Written on 17th December 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

silent death

it's all so silent
I see you fade
your eyes closed
and your voice broken

once so strong
and beautiful
you lay down
losing strength

your lips whisper
on and on
without any sound
you scream

you cry
and tears flow
down your face
red like blood

you woke up
out of nightmares
too late
to go on with your life

you realized
that you're dying
no chance
to start again

and your eyes
meet mine
asking for help
you'll never get

Written on 16th December 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

peaceful rest

It's been a while
since I heard your voice
and yet
nothing has changed

still you make me smile
and still I'll find rest
when you're around
everything seems so far away

all my troubles fade
and I can feel peace inside of me
like always
when you told me a tale

I really wonder who you are
and what it is
that connects us
in this very special way

you take away the pain
the restless thoughts
which try hard to kill me
to break me once more

I've always longed for a rest
some peace of mind
a kind of freedom
I never understood

I never wanted to be on the run
chasing from chance to chance
trying to keep up with others
fighting for my life

since I've been a small one
I had to proof
that I was as good
as they were

sometimes I don't know
what I would have done
without you
and your tales

and yet
you were alway there
you gave me a refuge
my place of peaceful rest

time to find myself
good advices
you believed in me
and still do

Written on 15th December 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

Broken

You've been the one I've always trusted
my strength, my believe and my faith
There's been no way that we'd ever be parted
until now

I don't know what it is
I don't understand what has happened
and actually I'm not quiet sure
if I want to know why I've been abandoned

Still I hardly can think about anything
but what you've done to me
I can't take away all my feelings for you
and yet I don't want to

we've spend to many time with another
we've known each other for way to long
we've been so close
that can't come to an end like this

we both had found our missing piece
we've become one
and now you tell me
you don't trust me anymore

I'm falling
and you're no longer there to catch me
you won't be there to bring me back

Never I would have guessed
that it would be you
to bring me down
to break me

All that you leave behind is me
broken
and never meant
to become whole again


Written on 24th November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

losing strength

how long will it take until I can't bear it anymore
this feeling of weakness, knowing I'm losing strength

and how long till I break down and leave the world behind
'cause I've no more faith and hope

what about all those I hold dear
why can't they be by my side and spend a little time with me
why don't they help me to get back to the place I long for
giving me strength and hope
that I can go anywhere with them believing in me

and still I'm waiting
waiting for the last second to come
I'm fainting and keep going
as no-one seems to care

but for how long

Written on 23rd November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

Never again

I'd never want to see you again
and yet I can't get you out off my thoughts

you're like a drug
keeping me by your side
and pushing me away
just as you like it

now that I've gone
I wish you'd be sorry
for all the things you've done

Written on 15th November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

For a friend

I wish I could be a hope
but I'm not

Far across the distance
I long to be a friend
but I guess I'm not

And for I may no come around
and be with you
you might be angry

But even if I fail
my wish still is up to you
the best for you

Written on 13rd November 2007
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben

Jesus Christ Superstar

I see sadness
I see that there's still hope

You seem to be broken
but your eyes still shine

You seem not believe
even though so many
believe in you

But see
there is a light
there is more than you can see at the moment

Trust him
he will lead you

Written on 11th June 2002
© Sean Dimitjana Barleben